By 5:00 we were in Frank's bed with some music on, half dressed and making out like there was no tomorrow. I think that we had both intended to stop at some point, but somehow the whole stopping thing just kind of fell by the wayside. The next thing I knew my top was on his floor. Then it was soon joined by all the rest of our clothing.
Frank was on top of me, kissing his way down my neck and chest before letting his mouth wander over to my breast. He fondled the left one as his mouth explored the left one, kissing and licking. When he would run his tongue around my nipple and then suck on it, I couldn't help but moan. It just felt so good. And he was really making me wet, too. As he moved over to show equal love to my right breast, his hand slipped down my body and between my legs, locating that little bundle of nerves that made me feel so much pleasure. He lightly rubbed it, all the while licking and sucking on my nipple. I was pretty sure that I could actually
Night of the Vampire
Skipping school is fun. I just slipped out and nobody was the wiser.
I headed to the theater just in time to make the 1:15 showing.
After a trip to the concession stand I had my huge bag of popcorn in hand and my Skittles in my pocket. I was ready to head into my theater and watch some vampires snack on people. They were already showing previews and I wanted to get in there before it started.
When I got to the door I was about to reach for it, but it swung open unexpectedly and smacked me hard, knocking my popcorn out of my hand.
"God dammit!" I swore, looking at all my popcorn now on the floor.
"Oh my god, I'm sorry," the offender said.
And you won't believe who it was.
It was Lindsay!
She was now standing in the doorway with this "oh shit!" look on her face. I couldn't believe she was there, ruining the time I was supposed to be spending not thinking about her.
"Why aren't you in school?" I asked, automatically.
"Why aren't YOU in school?" she c
Insomnia & Insecurity
"What's wrong with you dude?" Patrick asked as I sat at our table during lunch, pushing my food around my plate. I had no appetite really.
"Nothing," I said.
"He's probably just tired," Adam said. "You know he's a busy man. Gotta keep the girlfriend satisfied. Ow ow ow!"
"What?! No way! She put out?" Patrick asked, amazed.
"I really dont want to talk about this," I said, pointing a fry threateningly at Adam. "Adam, shut up."
"Alright, alright," he said, holding his hands up in mock surrender.
"I don't believe this!" Patrick cried. "Now I'm the only one left?!"
"Yep. Ha ha!" Adam said, then pointed and laughed at him.
They started insulting each other in their usual lighthearted way, and I just wasn't amused.
To tell you the truth, it's been a really shitty day.
I don't know what is wrong with me, I just feel really...down. I guess I didn't get much sleep last night. And it didn't help that when I walked into first period, I saw Dexter Masterson. He had
Love = Breaking up
God I am sleepy.
It's first period and I feel like roadkill. I was up all night crying. I just can't believe I ruined everything with Frank. The time we've spent together has been the best time of my life. What did I have to go and say that I loved him for? Why couldn't I control myself? Why couldn't I hold it in? Now I am sure he thinks I am crazy.
I just suck at this love stuff, and if I continue to see Frank everything will just get more and more complicated and messed up until it comes to the point where he doesn't even want to be friends with me anymore. I don't think I could take it if that happened. I don't want to lose him altogether, so I think that maybe I should just stick to what I am good at. Just being his friend.
I mean, I know that I am not behaving rationally right now, I dont blame him for being weirded out by me. I do love him and I do want him to love me back, and I know that's not reasonable. I know I said I was fine when I left the
Wait a minute.
Maybe the weed is fucking with my brain and I didn't hear her correctly?
"What?" I asked.
"I just think that we would be better off as friends," Lindsay said.
I was silent, because I was having a hard time processing what she was saying. So she was breaking up with me?
"Wait a minute, if this is about earlier, I'm sorry. I handled it all wrong -"
"Frank it has nothing to do with you."
"It has everything to do with me - I am the person you are breaking up with!"
"It's not that I want to break up with you it's just that...I think we are probably better off as friends."
"That's the same thing you just said! That tells me nothing about what's wrong!"
"Nothing is wrong."
"Something is definitely wrong! How can you tell someone you love them then suddenly decide you want to break up?!"
"I don't know, it's just how I feel."
"But what about all the things you said -" I began, and then realized I was being a girl. If she was breaking up with me I should ju
WOW. Someone ring the crazy alarm.
Where did that come from?!
I mean, we haven't even been dating that long, she obviously does not love me!
Well, we were friends before we started dating, but not that close...but....we did see each other a lot...well, I don't know. Could she possibly love me? If she doesn't love me, why would she say so? And if she does love me - WHAT DO I DO?!?! That's like...huge. I mean, obviously I care about Lindsay, she is a friend and I got into this whole thing to help her, but I am not in love with her. And I don't know when or if I will ever be. Does that mean I am just leading her on and setting her up for a really bad heartbreak? She's just going to end up hating me.
I feel pressured now, like everything has changed and she will expect things to be different now...she'll expect more from me now. I shouldn't have had sex with her, I should've known she'd go nuts afterwards. I just dont know what to do now.
As soon as I dropped Lindsay h