C.O.A.D.V. 26

Insomnia & Insecurity
Frank POV:


"What's wrong with you dude?" Patrick asked as I sat at our table during lunch, pushing my food around my plate. I had no appetite really.

"Nothing," I said.

"He's probably just tired," Adam said. "You know he's a busy man. Gotta keep the girlfriend satisfied. Ow ow ow!"

"What?! No way! She put out?" Patrick asked, amazed.

"I really dont want to talk about this," I said, pointing a fry threateningly at Adam. "Adam, shut up."

"Alright, alright," he said, holding his hands up in mock surrender.

"I don't believe this!" Patrick cried. "Now I'm the only one left?!"

"Yep. Ha ha!" Adam said, then pointed and laughed at him.

They started insulting each other in their usual lighthearted way, and I just wasn't amused.

To tell you the truth, it's been a really shitty day.

I don't know what is wrong with me, I just feel really...down. I guess I didn't get much sleep last night. And it didn't help that when I walked into first period, I saw Dexter Masterson. He had a black eye. I probably would've laughed but as soon as he saw me he made a throat-slitting gesture at me. I am interpreting that as he now wants me dead. Great. Way to get killed over a girl who doesnt even really like me.

I don't know, maybe she just wanted sex? Maybe I wasn't any good? She didn't write me any notes today. I guess she had nothing to say. So much for being friends, huh?

I just dont understand how you can tell someone you love them and then the next day you don't even want to speak to them!

To top matters off, classes are really making me miserable today. I just really dont want to be here right now. I just want to go home.

I haven't told the boys about me not taking Lindsay to the prom. I really don't need their BS on top of everything else. I'll probably just end up asking Jamia. She was writing me notes all first period and she hinted around about me asking her to the prom.

But the truth is, I have had it with girls.

I am serious. They are crazy.

Have I mentioned that Lindsay looked really pretty today?



I guess I really do like her a lot more than I thought I did. But I'm not about to let her find that out. Not now that she's canned me.

In fact, I don't even want to see her for awhile.

I think I'm just gonna skip the rest of the day. I'm not telling anyone either. After lunch I'm just going to slip out unnoticed. I think I'll go see Night of the Vampire again. Everyone keeps talking about how good it is and I want to actually see it this time. Maybe it'll take my mind off of things.



Lindsay POV:



Everyone is asking me about me and Frank and I don't know what to say. But they've already noticed we havent been talking and the very obvious fact that we're not having lunch together today. It won't be long before they figure out that it didn't work out. I am not looking forward to that.

Also not looking forward to: Seeing Dexter Masterson in Art class.

Just the thought of him brought back old feelings from that night and the next morning when I thought that he had raped me. I suddenly felt sick to my stomach. No, I dont think I can see him today. I'm not ready. And I don't really have Frank anymore to make me feel safe. I am on my own now, and I dont think I am ready to handle it. Maybe I can just skip this afternoon?

Wow, I've never skipped school before. How do I do this? I guess after lunch I could just sneak out, unnoticed.

Yeah.

I think I will.

At least I won't have to worry about seeing Frank in the hall. I always do in the afternoon. And I know its only been a half a day since I've talked to him, but...I really miss him.

He'd probably think that was nuts if I told him.

And I'm just stupid enough to.

I have obtained the note from the trash can. I just did it while the teacher wasn't looking. Real smooth-like. I am kind of proud of myself. The only problem is....I just don't know if I have the guts to read it.

Oh who am I kidding?!

I'm going into a bathroom stall right now to read it.




Hey Frank, what's up?

Not much.

Are you sure? You dont seem yourself today.

Just tired.

The girlfriend got you worn out already? ha

I wish. She broke up with me yesterday.

What? Why?

That is what I would like to know.

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. Are you okay?

Not really. I don't get what I did wrong. I mean, I think I know why she dumped me, but I dont think she's being reasonable.

Well you don't need her. If she would just dump you out of the blue like that and not even tell you why, she doesn't deserve you. Who are you going to take to prom now?

I don't think I'm gonna go to prom now.

You should go, Frank, it's gonna be huge. You'll regret it if you don't.

I dunno maybe you're right.

So....you should ask someone else.

Maybe. I don't know. I guess I just need to figure stuff out.

Call me if you wanna talk, okay? 908-456-3811 I'm a good listener.

Ok. Thanks Jamia.

What are friends for?


THAT BITCH!

*loads stapler profusely*

Okay, look - I'm not really going to staple her eye into her skull.

But words cannot express how much I want to right now.

Oh I can just see it now: First she'll get him to call her. Then she'll get him to come over. Then she'll get him to take her to prom. Then she'll accidentally on purpose lose all of her clothes!!!

I can't believe he told her that I'm being "unreasonable!" He must really hate me!

I can't deal with this right now. I just have to get out of here.

Now.